I would not be able to flee back to my home with my child being born on foreign soil
I’m 27, living as an immigrant from a country that only recognizes one citizenship. I found out I was pregnant after doing an x-ray for immigration purposes to become a permanent resident. My husband and I have been together for two years, but we have talked about starting a family only after I become a citizen. I was experiencing extreme nausea, I was already recovering from a surgery to remove a tumour, and my health suffered even more as I became pregnant. I was unable to eat, drink, sleep, or even stay awake for hours at a time, I dropped from my healthy weight of 135lbs to 105lbs at 5’5. I knew if I had a kid here in my husbands country, and if anything went wrong, I would not be able to flee back to my home with my child being born on foreign soil. My job suffered, my mental health declined, and I was genuinely contemplating suicide. We decided to have an abortion at 8 weeks. I’m better now, but sometimes I do wonder about the what-ifs. I don’t regret my decision, but I do grieve for the fact that I couldn’t be ready to provide my child with the life they deserve. I wish the world would be kinder, that we don’t have to work ourselves to death just to not spend it with our loved ones. At 27 you think you’d have your life together, but at the end of the day, I know my decision now will ensure my future children won’t have to grow up in poverty, under a roof where their parents work more than they spend time together.