Missing mother's support
I was 17 when I found out my high school sweetheart and I were pregnant. I was so shocked and confused and scared. I came from a loving household but my mother was very strict and dictated my life. She told me that "you could have become addicted to drugs and that would have been better than this!" She told me if I kept the baby, she would NOT support me and I would be living out on the street, and I just couldn't imagine how my life would be ok without her there to help me. I always wanted my mom a part of my kids lives, including this baby, but she was telling me that wouldn't happen. My boyfriend's family was so supportive and said I could live with them etc. They were lovely, but poor so how could they support all of us? Also nothing can replace your mom. I talked to my boyfriend and (typical high school guy) he said all the right things but then left on a cruise to FL that his family always had planned every year. Should he have stayed or am I just being selfish? He never went to any appointments with me even though he said he supported me. He ultimately wanted to keep our baby and I SHOULD have listened to him. I am ashamed that I couldn't see the big picture or tell myself I would be ok without my mom. My boyfriend and his family were THERE they were willing to help but I said no. WHY?! I just wish I could go back in time. What would my life look like if we stayed together, I moved in with him, we raised our baby and chose the life God had planned for me? Our life may have been hard but we would have been together. God bless all of you struggling....I am right there with you.