9 years ago
9 years ago I had the worst abortion I ever heard of. I got pregnant by a male friend I did not give consent too. I knew I was pregnant pretty much right away. My best friend got me an appointment to get an abortion at 6 weeks. This clinic had very strict security. It started out well, I talked to a therapist first, then I had a doctor tell me how far along I was. I was given 1 Ativan for my nerves…… and that was it. No numbing, no pain relief, nothing…. The doctor came in and scraped all the cells out of me and at the same time put in a copper IUD. The pain I felt radiated down my legs up my body, it was sooo painful. I felt the scraping inside of me. Immediately after I was walked to a bed and told if I felt like fainting ask for ginger ale. It was so awful. I didn’t want to have kids, it wasn’t grieving that I was going through. I was traumatized by the pain I went through…. And the more I’ve asked around the more I realize that most women don’t have to go through that. Where is a platform for me, I know I’m not the only person that went through this. I’m pissed that people only talk about the good experiences and there is only space for people to talk about grieving