I already had two children
I already had two children: 3 and 1 years old. We had the discussion about having a third. Both of us want it, but we didn’t take seriously the financial it would have ( change house…) I got pregnant the first Time we try. … I was happy so was he when I find out the test was positive. Then, all the anxiety and the unsolved questions came back. Intrusive thoughts, that continues to feed the beast who was anxiety. he wasn’t supportive in my opinion. He listened to my concerns, tell me it was my choice, that hé would be there anyway but we wasn’t ready to work more to help financially. So i did it at 9 weeks because I was scared, because i want to give all I could to the two kids i already have and to protect my couple. Now i’m Mad at me. I feel the shame of not being brave enough to try…. I sad when I think of him . When I look to his brother and sister. What he would have look like? I feel Mad to my partner too.